Godfather

So
Me and my best friend have this kinda recurring joke about me not being able to keep it in my pants and then ending up with 17 (soon to be 18) children.
What I ACTUALLY told him (he misheard it as I HAVE 18 CHILDREN... I don't know how though) was that I have four GODCHILDREN. 18 children, godchildren... sounds similar (hahhahahah yeah-nope)
So. Yes. I'm Christian. And I'm also a Godfather. I think in the Christian sense. Like, all my friends told me OMG YOU'RE A GODFATHER????!?! THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE, THE LEGAL DEFINITION OF A GODFATHER MEANS and blah blah blah. Okay, so who cares. Wow I'm a godfather. Sure I'm happy, I have kids to look after (in the sense that I look after them at church. They're barely 1~2 years old at most)and I FULLY UNDERSTOOD the responsibilities AT THE DAMNED CEREMONY. Look, I understand maybe in the legal sense I CAN'T be a godfather.Maybe. Just maybe. But on the document it says I am. So will you please stop doubting my credibility as a Godfather? I had friends arguing to me about how I can't be a godfather because I can't look after the child if his/her parents spontaneously both die somehow, along with his entire damned family. Now I can't remember who it was, but I don't think they quite get the concept of me being in a religion. Maybe the definition for a godfather is different in society outside of Christianity. But that doesn't mean you have any sort of right to go ahead and constantly nag me about how I can't be a godfather because it legally can't happen.
Welp, too bad for you person, because in document, it says I'm the godfather for four (soon to be five) godchildren. So to put it lightly, just shut up. I'm a godfather. accept it please.

Also, another thing that keeps on nagging at the back of my mind.
nearly EVERYONE'S first reaction to my statement was 'WHAT??!! Who was stupid enough to make you the Godfather of their children'.
Okay.
Firstly, I understand that this is a joke. But after hearing everyone that knows about my godchildren, this statement starts to slightly get on my nerves.
Okay. Look at me. I'm a jokester, a prankster and rather very annoying overall, but I have NEVER done something OVERLY irresponsible. In fact, sometimes, the adults at the church tell me I'm TOO careful with the children, and should actually step back a bit, and let them have a little bit more freedom.
Hear that? I'm TOO careful with the children. I don't want them to get hurt, I have absolutely no gains from them getting hurt, other than the parents blaming me for not looking after them properly.
Now I understand many people have been annoyed at me for some sort of prank or a careless word, but do NOT for one second, that because I'm annoying I'm not a responsible godfather.
So stop with your surprised comments of 'Oh my god you're a godfather, someone help those children'.
Just. Stop.

Y'all STOP now.
Okay?
-J

LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE LOL LIMEWIRE

So, on a brighter note, I found this song I think sometimes last year. And I could not stop listening to it.
It has the most addictive tune, and although it only has one verse in total, it's the most amazing and cheerful song you'll ever find.
It was very confusing at first, but soon after, I found myself thoroughly enjoying it.
BTW anyone with mild epilepsy should avoid watching it.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBH4g_ua5es

Aaand so ten hours of my life disappears down the drain. I put that song on for the full ten hours before, I didn't sit there and watch it all the time. But it was still the best day of the holidays :D

Infact, why don't we just surf the Youtubes today.

Another video... I found this one nearly... Five years ago.. It's still kickass.
This one isn't ten hours long it's okay XD
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ve4M4UsJQo

Aaaand. Tomska FTW
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjK-LzkekCU

More Tomska
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avYBuijHPBI

And Some more Tomska
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=avYBuijHPBI

And to Finish off the Tomska Spree
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3I3LCyLY_m0
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-nDfVIVhsM

Some Eepic Animations
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7I70FbloQ4k

Some Kick-ass Musicks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVok-7tDFF8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncrhSikSFLU

And so, if you bothered to once again watch the long list of videos I have taken the effort to give you the links to, then... I hope you had a good time because I felt extremely happy when watching all of these videos, and I felt uplifted by these videos. So watch them again when you're down. Especially the funny ones. They're always nice. :)

Y'all be well now
-J

It's Okay

Hello Everybady

I am back today. And Today, unlike the other post, I am going to discuss something that I find quite annoying. This may be a short post, just like the one I will write straight after this post.

So, currently, two of my close (ish) friends are in a relationship. Let's call them Double A Batteries. And they are constantly getting hate from both me and my fellow classmates. I do it too, so you can call me a hypocrite, but I think it's important to say this.
When two people are in a relationship, it means they love each other (or maybe not, maybe they're just friends with benefits but whatever). And who cares if they're making out, they're a couple for fucks sake. And If they keep ignoring you, ignore them back. Don't start verbally expressing your distaste for their PDA (Public Displays of Affection). Even if it is awkward for us, imagine how awkward it is for them when we all start shouting "GUYS! STOP MAKING OUT BACK THERE!". Just as a reminder, I did say, 'Call me a hypocrite' up there ^^^ .
I know it's hard to not stare, but I feel people are getting hurt because of our actions towards them. And the things we may consider as 'jokes', to them it's really just taking a stab at them and their relationship. I know a few others in a relationship as a matter of fact. And I know they do't make out IN PUBLIC, they may do so in private IDK. BUT! Since we don't know about that, we don't make as many jibes at them. I'm staring at you. You know who you are. If you two start doing it as well, you better be prepared for AS MUCH, if not MORE jabs at you two. Why? Because I think it's only necessary in the case of 'revenge' and 'equality'. You can't just take your picks of choices in life without them having to affect you. So... Choose your straws wisely. And don't expect too much sympathy from me if your relationship gets prodded in a painful manner.

That is all.
To sum up :
1) Leave the Double A Batteries be. If they're making a mistake from your point of view, let them learn from their mistake, but don't push their learning. Leave them happy for while they can.

2) If you're in a relationship, you shouldn't criticize other people's relationships, or even express your distaste too much because, if you end up somehow doing the same thing, you'll just become a hypocrite, you can expect A LOT of the same teasing and jibes at you and you might wonder 'Why is everyone saying this kind of stuff to us?'. I'll tell you now, speak to others, the way you want to be spoken back to. Otherwise don't speak at all.

Soo.. Just leave them be. I'm sure they'll learn eventually. Just wait.

Y'all be well now
-J

These are a few of my Favourite Things

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woollen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favourite things

Cream coloured ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and sleigh bells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favourite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are a few of my favourite things

When the dog bites
When the bee stings
When I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favourite thingsAnd then I don't feel so bad
These are the lyrics to the song referenced in the title. This song is My Favourite Things from the Sound of Music (Great movie btw, should go watch if you haven't, I've got a copy ;) ). And so the reason this song is in this post is because... well... I'm pretty sure you can guess, this post is about a few of my favourite things.
1) Right now, the time is 5:42. Outside my house is a beautiful sunset. The window is quite a large window, which shows a view of... the house across from us XD And the road. But the best thing is, I can see the sky, so clearly over the top of the house across from us. It's very picturesque. The house does actually make a lovely view with the sunset. The sun going over down yonder tinges the sky a beautiful orange, the type of orange that just melts your heart. The orange colour then spreads out, and soon the orange melts with the sky blue and turns a light shade of pink, that barely hints at the sky. After a while, the sun goes far over sufficiently, to give the house some form of shading, and the house turns slightly darker inside. The atmosphere becomes slightly more relaxed, and my minds feels much more at ease.
The sunset is beautiful. <3
You might say it is very(•_•)
( •_•)>⌐■-■
(⌐■_■)
'Settling'
*Ba-dum ching*

2) Talking. 
Maybe not so much myself talking, but I love other people's company. I want people to talk to me, and I like to talk to them back. Sometimes I say stupid things, other times, I make people laugh. But mostly I just enjoy listening to other people talk. It gives me a sense of comfort, and I love the kind of give-and-receive the in the conversations. Just <3

Lastly 3) You all know it's coming...
My piano. 
It's not as much a physical thing for me. It's not the actual act of playing that I like (although I love that bit as well). For me, the piano is deeper. It's a means of getting away. It's become this kind of spiritual detacher. I play the piano, and for a while nobody disturbs me, except for the douchebags who can't appreciate piano music. But other than that, nobody disturbs me, and I can finally escape my own house for a while. Just let my fingers flow over the keyboard, settle down with some Billy Joel, and let the music take control.
You might say 'aww, Jae, your relationship with the piano ain't nothing special. You ain't no soul mate with the piano or anything', but if you stood where I've been, and understood my situation, you wouldn't have a squeak coming out of your mouth.
Thank the Piano later
He's transformed me into somewhat a better person. Just sit me down on a piano and talk to me if you don't want a hyperactive kid talking to you :)
Seriously, you should all go play Piano.
Y'all be well now
-J

Demon Whisperer

Demon Whispering.
Or otherwise known as Retarded Jae telling people in a batman voice to do retarded things. See, I have this habit of disagreeing to absolutely EVERYTHING I nearly hear. Like, if someone said, don't do it!'. I would probably shout at them 'DO IT!' with absolutely no clue to what they're supposed to be doing. It's just one of my habits. And I don't really know how some people feel about that. Sometimes I feel like people are weirded out,and they judge me because I have this really deep batman voice that I basically use to annoy people. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand so I came to this blog to ask. What do you think when I start whispering the absolute opposite of what people are saying in your ear? Do you
a) Get annoyed?
b) Freak Out
or c) IDGAF (I Don't Give A Fudgisticals)

I honest to god want to know what people think. If it's annoying, I will stop it. Because, as much as I say I hate you all, in all honesty, all I want is to fit in somewhere. Settle down with my friends. Have a nice loooooooooooooooooooooong exteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeended chat. And just enjoy life.
I love my friends, and I'm sure most of them love me back (doubting the credibility of some) but yeah. So there you have it. Don't pay attention to me saying 'I hate you' and not giving you a hug. That's a good sign from me. It means your a close enough friend for me to get embarassed by hugging. Know I hate you when I say 'Fark Awf'. Because then it seriously means I don't want you ther. But yeah.
Friends 4eva :D (internet slang ftw~)

As a short farewell, why not poems

I do thinks me
By my own IQ
What I can see
is Lie

When all I see
is white wall
standing in front of
me

Me thinks me be smart
when all I be is insane.

What was that poem about you ask?
What was the song
Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds about then?
(LSD)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Y'all be well now
-J
p.s Don't forget to actually tell me what you think. This is about as important to me because you're all my friends. And I don't like pissing off my friends. I look like I don't give a fuck, but I'm actually really worried.
P.ps Seriously
P.p.ps Tell meeee

After - MATH of Leap Campu-des

HA! Dem punz

Hai~ Everybadi.
So the class is back from the three-day long excursion of doom and amazingness and unicorns. And I'm just going to write a few points from my view about the amazingess and unicorns of the camp.

It was just too amazing to fully describe the feeling in words. I felt euphoric, and ecstatic the whole way through. I was a happy chappy (except for that first night when you snored like a bitch Anson. That sucked balls :P ). Other then that, I had the most fun I probably will have a for a short while ( #BandCampu-DesFTW). Where do I start.. ohh....

1) The Bus Ride There
Phew. That was an interesting bus ride. starting from the moment I arrived late onto the bus with shouts of 'JAE WHAT IS WITH YOUR PILLOW??!!' (My Pillow is a very manly pink colour thanks!) I knew at once, this was where I belonged. With most of my other friends, I don't feel too great half of the time, I just feel like I fit in, but on that bus, I was accepted, and I was happy. Ecstatic even (No I wasn't taking ecstasy).
Then the musicks. Oh the Musicks. From the Headbanging to the ballads, the music that was coming from every which-way was invigorating. I don't think I stopped smiling all the way for the four hours there. It was like family, but family I actually enjoyed being around. No shouting (the mean kind) no swearing (except for the joking kind) and no beating up (excluding maybe the chairs). The hour flowed from one to another as the bus ran it's kilometres with a relative smoothness. The hunger from not managing to feel hungry enough to eat one of those delicious looking pies from that pie shop we stopped at. And that souvenir Jam. That I didn't manage to taste. For the whole. Campu-des. Damn XD BUS TRIPS WITH AMAZING FRIENDS FTW!

2) The Actual Campu-des. Phew! Dat booty  Camp. Haha... Oh gods it was so tiring. And smiley. And just pure awesome. Do you know why it was pure awesome? BECAUSE LEAP! and Mr Halas. -Fire is what awaits all beauty - Wise words from the Ukrainian Viktor Halas. The first part we went to observe the Rock Platforms, and look at some fishies and jelly-fishies, and some crabs, and lobsters, and turtles, and eels, and prawns, and other cool jazzy sea-y stuff. That was all fun. Observing the rock pool was much cooler though. Watching huge was crash upon the shore. Part of it was like the titanic XD I think me and a friend re-enacted the boat scene from the Titanic XD. Was a wonderful time which I had. The actual camp... Ahhh. The games we played on the camp. The conversations we had. They are just too amazing to even describe properly. It's just a feeling that wells up. Inside, until it nearly wants to make you cry. Teardrops... teardrops.. DOOOOWWEEEEOOOOHHH (Grease)

3) Just. That Night.
Thinking about that night. Makes me cry. Everyone was just. Together. Talking. And it was actually like we were family. We had so much fun. We almost fekll asleep together, on the lawn. In our sleeping bags. All huddled together like penguins. TRying to recreate the feelings which I had in those nights, would be like trying achieve the pinnacle of euphoria. You can't. I can't. I finally found somewhere where I fit in. I was accepted. My company was enjoyed. It. was just... I Love you all. I can't describe it any other way. I just love you all.

I cry as I think over that night. I was happier than ever. I wish to go back to that night. Everything was just perfect.
Now it's over, and I hope we all get along miraculously well. I missed all of my school friend.
AND NOW J IS BACK IN DA HOUSE, AND THE BLOG IS BACK FROM HIATUS (for the people who previously did not know about my new blog. Although you probably found out somehow.)

Y'all be well now
-J

Sick, Deadly Slip of Paper in Yellow Envelope, The words I hate, And Campu-des!

Hello!
Bonjour!
HAI! MOSHIMOSHI! (jk, jk)

So wassup guys? Jae back here with some more idiocy and rambling.
The following post will contain excessive amounts of swearing and reverting back to the old blogging method. Please try to follow along.

1) I'm sick
(Shut up, It was worth mentioning)

2) We got our Mid Sem reports today. Wow. Never have I been so nervous to get one. And never have I been SO devastated to peek at the contents. When I saw my mid Sem reports, I wanted to rip it up. I wanted to hide it from everybody. I wanted to go and shoot myself, whilst hanging myself. Yeah. It was that bad. I don't FUCKING understand why I keep doing this. I keep promising myself 'I'll actually try. no, i NEED to try, for my parents, and at least for myself. But halfway through the term, wait. Scrap that. Halfway through the first week my confidence crumbles, I die of stress and go into full 'Yoloni' mode. I hate myself for doing it every time, and I disappoint my parents every report that comes out. I just can't seem to focus on one task long enough for something half decent to come out. Whether that be a Maths assignment, a Science report, a English Essay, or a SoSe Report (all things that are overdue, or not finished properly) I just can't seem to sit down, and bring up something half decent.
When I saw the report, I thought I was a bout to buckle, and nearly started to hyperventilate. I put an imaginary gun against my head and shot myself with an imaginary bullet. I'm scared. My parents always told me that if I do this shit in highschool, I'll never achieve anything in college, and not to even dream about Uni.And I think after three years and three terms, I can finally understand slightly what they mean. I know I still really dislike them for beating me up at every little problem, but I can see what they're trying to do.They just want me to be a normal kid, who studies well, gets good grades, gets into a proper Uni, gets a good job, and lives a happy life. I know they want me to be like my sister. Smart, well achieving, and complacent with her place in life.
BUT I'M NOT MY SISTER. AND DON'T YOU EVER COMPARE ME TO HER. EVER.
Yes.. I have seriously considered suicide for a while now. And then I got rid of that idea as soon as I started to think about death again. And realised even though I hate my life THAT much, I don't want to cut it so short. But I still hate my life. And no amount of sympathising will change my mind.

And 3) #LEAPIESGOINGONLEAPCAMP!
I'm sick, I'm going to be on a bus with my classmates, and we're going to Tathra in drizzly weather!
INFECTION TIME!

Live long.
Prosper.
Life a happy life.
I wish.

Y'all be well now.
-J
(P.s Dong Hoon, this blog will be going public soon :P Just because I feel like people actually do need to know that I went back on my word XD After that really dramatic FUCK THIS BLOG rant on my other blog. XD )

The Psychoanalysis of Cookie Clicking

Hi.
I have absolutely no idea what psychoanalysis means but it sounded fancy pants so I used it. There :D

So, there has been another incident of the 'viral'. Lately, many people seem to have submitted to playing this game known as 'Cookie Clicker'. My best friend was one of the early infected. He was pestering me about this game for a while, and I wondered. What. It sounds so boring. O.o
So, a basic overview of Cookie Clicker. You click cookies to make cookies. Then you use those cookies to buy upgrades, so you can get cookies faster and automate the process of obtaining the sweet delicacies. And so the game goes on and on. Now, I resisted the temptation and infection of this game for a solid week. And now I have buckled and succumbed to playing this sweet game of cookie madness. Even as I write this blog post, I have the game turned on in the background, and I am watching the cookies spill out like a waterfall. Tis a beautiful sight :D
I currently at this time frame (I probably will have more by the time this post goes up) a Cookie Income of 39.8 Cookies per Second (CpS). It is a sad life which I lead, I am immersed in a game in which the only goal is to make more and more cookies until your life dissipates from the boredom or the transfixiation of watching the cookies fall like a Cornucopia.
However, my best friend, quit the game after he had an income of over 5 mil CpS. Yeah. 5 million Cookies per Second. You my friend, are the definition of no lifer XD

And so I highly recommend playing this game for less than thirty minutes. Possibly only play this game for ten because you too will soon find that somehow, you are being sucked into a world where cookies are your all.
http://orteil.dashnet.org/cookieclicker/
Just go try playing the game *sigh*

Onto my next topic.
So, some of my friends asked me 'Why are you so tired today?'
And to that I replied 'I was up till five watching an anime. And I didn't even finish the whole 25 episode season. Starting from 9 pm to 5 am the next day (today) I was up watching the whole of the anime through and through. Each and every episode, even though I had already read through season one in manga.
Progress report. Now have a Cookie Income of 109.9 CpS.
Aaaanyways. Yeah. Something about the anime I was watching really enthralled me. And so today, I was in soaring spirits. And I felt like I should have been outside for the whole day, just enjoying today's nicer weather. I tried to constantly put on a smile. I made my new Motto One more smile, one more laugh, indicating that, no matter how hard the going gets, I should show a bright smile and laugh one more time, for my friends and remind them that it's not as bad. To Smile one more time, one more time than everybody else, and to laugh one laugh longer. This way, my spirit feels better. I don't constantly have this weight of stress and achievement pressing on my shoulders, like the sky is pushing down on me. I don't want to carry the weight of the heavens so I pass it off with a smile and a laugh.
That anime really touched me and I very thoroughly enjoyed it, although some bits were.. let's say the typical (Not trying to be rude here but... ) 'Japanese' Anime.
But aside from that, I loved every moment of it, every character and I felt a very strong connection to this anime. Mostly because for me, the game was what I thought about the world, until  my rather depressing thoughts about death and afterlife.
But whatever. Looking into an abyss doesn't mean you'll always see the bottom of it yeah? :)
So I look forward, and take the leap of faith.
I inhale.
I watch my new favourite anime,
and I grin.
Life isn't so bad.
Go watch the anime :D
http://swordartonlineepisodes.com/
I <3 it. I can't guarantee you'll like it but what the hell. You only get one shot at life.

Smile keep your head up
And

Y'all be well now
-J

Let's Dance!

Heya Guys! :D

Sooo..... Okay. Some people may be confused as to why I'm writing about the aim of the blog post at the start now. Well, actually, nearly all of you probably are, because this wasn't done in my last blog. See, I think, in my old blog, it was very..... disjointed, and confusing to read. I believe part of the problem was because I didn't give each blog post a 'theme' as such, and therefore, I just ended up ranting on and on about random stuff and just went completely off topic.
So I'm writing the aim of the blog at the start so I don't lose track of my topic. :D
Just for the sake of it, the aim of this blog post is..... I kinda forgot, it went along the lines of dancing...
Oh. My Favourite songs. Dat's right.

So.
Positivity guys :D Keeps me motivated, keeps me hyperactive. However, what really keeps me from entering into the nether realm (jk guys :P I didn't know how to describe something. So I just made it up. You guys understand right? :D) is my passion for music. I won't say I'm bad at music, but I won't say I'm good at it either. I play Piano, trumpet, and a bit of guitar, violin and drums. But as much as I love playing my intruments, I love listening to good music better. My musical taste ranges from classical like Beethoven, And Debussy, all the way to EDM (Electronic Dance Music) and Dubstep. Some of you may disagree with me but, hey. I'm me remember? If me and you were both the same person, just like everyone else in the world, this place would be hella boring right?
Anyways. And so, I basically melt when I listen to really well played classical pieces, or start dancing uncontrollably to EDM or other music that I like. If you told me to select a few favourite songs.... Well :D I wouldn't really be able to select a 'few'. I love all of them pretty equally. Of course there are those preferences I have, like Classical over Dubstep, Rag over Blues but still. I just wouldn't be able to live without any of my music.
Here's just a few of my favourite songs.
Joy Division - The Wombats
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayuooyWPEUc

Little Talks - Of Monsters and Men
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghb6eDopW8I

Let's See How Far We've Come - Matchbox 20
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghb6eDopW8I

Piano Man - Billy Joel (<3)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gxEPV4kolz0

I won't put you guys through the torture of having to sit through ALL of these FOUR vidoes which are only 3~4 Minutes long. That's like 12 MINUTES. :O I mean, with Gen Y~Z 's short attention span, I doubt you guys would be able to even sit still for that long ;) (A reference to my SoSe class for those of you who do not know me).
But now, those songs above are only... Songs I guess. Like they are the songs which I can sing to, which I like. Mind you, they're not in order from Favourite to least favourite, they're just songs which I liked, which popped into my head at that specific time.
Now these are instrumental songs which I like.

U.N Owen was Her
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tds0qoxWVss

Struttin it Around - Sonny Chua
(Imagine a YouTube link :D )

Black Keys Etude Op.10 No.5 - Chopin (Hells to the Yeah!)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsonM5mSvOk
(And This ^^^ is the reason I don't mark myself as 'good' :P)

Aaaaaand
Red Like Roses - RWBY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HmV_Iy7oY6o

Sooo..... Yeah. If you guys bothered to watch any of the vids up there, you will notice I have quite a weird/wide taste in music. But that's just me, my opinion, and mine only. I'm not saying that you guys should all watch the vids or anything... (Hint HINT)
But yeah. I really like the pieces of music up there, because they all lift my mood whenever I listen to them. Music has been my only lifeline, and saviour in my own house. I don't strictly hate my parents, but let's just say they're not the nicest at times. :P
And so my piano and music has been my only saving light at home.
Otherwise, you guys, my friends would be. :D

Y'all be well now
-J

The Aim of This Blog

Hi again~

So today I felt really stressed out and retarded, so I decided to write bout this, the aim of this blog, and what my title means in this post. Happy days :D

So. This morning I had three things to remember. Report. Bibliography. And Handout. Of those three things. I managed to remember t print off only one of them. Don't ask me HOW I forgot the other two since they were all linked, I just did. Right now I'm rubbing my temples at the epitome of idiocy shown in this morning. I have this problem. This reallllly REEAAALLLLLLY big problem which kinda restricts me. I am lazy. AS FUCK. Like you may say, 'Oh no you're not, you're like... really hyperactive!'. I mean when it comes to work. I'm hyperactive, physically, but when it comes to work, my mind just blanks out, I get this blank expression on my face, and then I start to ponder about my life. Then I snap back into reality. For a second, and then go back and sink into this mine of thoughts and reflect and mine out those thoughts from my head. Like this blog, all I'm doing is - hypothetically speaking- is mining out those thoughts, and transferring them onto my this blog. And then you guys read it. And then I write with this really blank expression on my face and sometimes don't even process half of the things I say on this blog. Sometimes something stupid slips out of my mind. But that's just me. And you guys know me, I'm that really fast acting hyperactive dwarf who goes around doing hyperactivities. :P.
Oh a second note on that. Dong Hoon, All I've ever really been is just jealous of you. You may feel like, because your parents made you grow up without a computer, or phone, or the things I take for granted, you have really good study habits. I don't. And I'm jealous of that. I know I said before, I don't want to spend my life waiting around for my test results, just so I can go do another one, but what I mean is. I don't want to do that, because I know I'll fail - rather epically- and then get pushed around by my parents, get called names. Get judging looks from my friends when I say 'Shit. My assignment' and watch it happen to me all over again. Every day of my life. And It hurts. And I hate it. That's why I want out. Living a sheltered life under my roof, with all my things I take for granted, because of that, my life now crumbles around me. Whereas yours, although seemingly restricted and bad at times, you have a good time at school. You have proper friends. And you succeed. And that's why I hate you.

On a more positive note, the aim of this blog. So. Let's make things clear here. I'm not just here to spite the guy who basically made me close down my blog because I hated him so much and I wanted him to die because he was being a dick about my old blog. No. It's nothing like that. I'm here, to say the things I never would have said in my older blog. That past blog was my emotional crutch. But I also created an image that I didn't want. I unintentionally created this image which forced me into a corner, eventuall breaking me. You can see this in the last few posts, how desperate I was getting.
To make it a bit easier to understand, let's say.... That old blog was like my cocoon. Restrictive, uncomfortable, and very easy to break. This one is like a butterfly, slightly more vulnerable, but much more beautiful (not really) and much more freedom. That's why I think I actually like this blog better, because even though I only have a few people reading this blog at a time, they don't judge. They don't point fingers and say 'That was stupid'. They read. And they leave. And they come back again.
They watch the butterfly. And the butterfly flies away. Much more freedom. Much more happiness.

And finally, as a smaller paragraph. The title of this blog. Over the Rainbow and Under the Hill. What does that mean? It makes slightly more sense in my head than it does in yours most likely XD

Somwhere over the rainbow
Way up high
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true

Lyrics from the Song 'Somewhere Over the Rainbow'. http://www.youtube.com/watch?

 v=PSZxmZmBfn Go watch this. I <3 it.

But yes, the part of the title was based on this song. I can relate. I want to get away from this place. I want to wish, and have my dreams become my reality. I want to be my own world. That's why this part of the title is based on this song.

Well, I'm the same kid I was
Out in the schoolyard

Hallowed my pockets with sticks
From the parking lot
Alone

Though I walked alone
I was sure there was somebody
There on my shoulder, quietly guiding me
Home

I counted to 1000, 2000, and even
Math game and nicknames for friends
That I rarely meet
But years roll along, along so graciously
And so gracefully we age into infinity
On

Lyrics from the song A House Under the Hill. Once again. Something just pulled me to this song. And then I realised. I felt like I kind of knew what this song was talking about. My Primary school life wasn't exactly the most spectacular life. I certainly hated nearly every single moment of my years from Year 2~6. And I just. Cried when I first heard this song.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=96BO8YJsMyo Go have a listen.

Y'all be well now
-J <3

*Edit I edited it because it was kinda hard to see the lyrics. So, sorry (^^;)

Hi.

Hi Dong Hoooooooonnnnnnnnnnn....

This feels like Deja Vu. Since when, and how did you find out about my blog...? Anyways. Sup guys, I'm back. Hi, my two man (and woman) audience. How are you today? I'm feeling much better. I had a horrible cold yesterday. Woke up with the most annoying headache. My head felt like someone was pounding a bass drum from the inside, then being really obnoxious and amplifying the sound. So, for about half the day, me head felt like a walking dubstep machine. That was a pleasant half a day. And so, For the morning and part of the afternoon, I was walking around aimlessly like a zombie. Eating, reading, sleeping, eat some more, lose your life for a bit on the computer, and back to reading and sleeping. For the rest of the day, I did nothing, but repeat everything above, just in a more awake and less zombie-like state. Yes, I managed to recover from my sugar overdose hangover and my cold in half a day. As you can probably tell, I have a very regeneration rate. I recover from most small sicknesses within a day or two. Worse illnesses go on for three or more days. But meh, not you guy's problems XD

So, today I felt like writing about myself. I can fully assure you, that you don't know me too well. What you're all scratching at is the surface, the shell that contains a lot of turmoil and mixed emotions.
Firstly, let's start off with my outer layer. I like to call myself a Con Man. Why? Because I find it sooooooo easy to completely rip everyone off with my emotions. Let me rephrase that. That was explained badly. I find it way too easy for me to all trick you and fool you with my body language. I have absolutely no idea, but it's just soooooo easy to make a fool of somebody with my emotions. But I usually don't. But I will tell you one thing. Now, Dong Hoon, Beth, this is a secret .... ;) You know how I always am able to make people laugh by being stupid like falling over in my seat, or falling off my trumpet, or nearly tripping over myself? That's all a lie XD . I like to entertain people, but I'm not witty, so slapstick does it for me. Trust me, if I wanted to, I wouldn't fall off of my trumpet. Stat. That's just one example. I can fake sickness as well. Remember in the first term of Year 9? That Assignment where we had to make our own original product? Well, if you remember correctly, I went out 'sick' to 'sickbay' because I was 'sick. The real reason was because Nick had left his USB in Room 30. So I went down to 'sickbay' (Cough *ROOM 30* Cough), taking a detour into sickbay to make sure I was actually put down as 'sick', and went off and found Nick's USB. Some kind year tens in the sickbay covered for me while I was meant to be in sickbay. There were a lot of people there that day :P. And so due to my brave adventures, we managed to get Nick's USB. However, my pride was short lived as we didn't have to present that day. That was a balls moment for me.

My next layer, also known as Inner Turmoil, not peace. Okay, aside from my humorous layer of slapstick and adorability, there lies a slight madness and insanity. Sometimes I get these really weird urges to strangle something, or to destroy something, or to actually kill something. So that seems slightly unnatural, but what's even more unnatural is, these weird urges come completely out of the blue. Soooooooooooooooo...... call me a psychopath, call me a murderer, I don't really care, why? Because it's me. And I'm sure you all understand. Right?

The third and final layer. Me. It defines who I am, and what my actions are. And honestly, all I  want to do is settle down with a few of my best friends, or even get some friends, invite them over. And have a nice life. Why? Because Life is too short for all it's trivialities. I don't want to spend my life in a chair, waiting for my next exam's results so I can go do another exam. I know it's not the most optimal life, but it's the life I want to lead. And who in the world has a right to deny me this?

Y'all be well now
-J

Well.... This is Awkward

Hi.
You may know me from my other blog. And if you know me, then you will also realise how short a time is has been since I decided to shut down my other blog. But for now, I'll give you a very short description of what happened. If you're a friend who found this blog by accident, well.... Hi. (^^)/ I'm back already (*^^*)

So, brief short description of what happened for those who don't know. Someone, who will go as the person He-who-shall-not-be-named, decided he would post a rather scathing comment on another one of my friend's blogs. The scathing comment was directed at me, and although I really shouldn't have let it affect me that much, it hurt like crazy when I read the comment. So, I took down that blog. Well. I think although he was being a leetle Bitch when he said the comment, in a very bizarre twisted way, he was right. But I'm still not forgiving him for what he said. I don't care if he apologizes, I'm a vengeful person, and I hold grudges very well. But all aside, I'm generally pretty nice (Aside from me being a bit physically aggressive :P )

Now that that little intro is over, how have you guys been? I've been kinda sad/depressed/lonely/ rather stressed, but don't let that bother you. I've started this new blog, much to be like Dong Hoon. I know I say I hate alot of people, but that's just my way of saying 'You're really my best friend'. Why am I so weird like that? Well. I used to be bullied a lot. From years 3~6 I was constantly bullied. Sometimes it was a fistfight, other times it was racism and verbal bullying. That experience made me very grudging to show my emotion or affection to anyone, lest the bullies get a hold of that and start teasing me for that as well. So even my own emotions became an enemy for me as well. Either way, I survived through the brutality of the bullying and harassment and I made it to High School. So, I have this dark past, of holding very bad grudges, *savagely* hospitalising somebody, and having a bad reputation for a temper. I try to fix these things, but It doesn't really work when you start to get harassed again in Year 7 XD It was only for a short while though.... Right, getting off topic. Back onto topic. Yeah, more about me.

I like piano, although my parents say I'm absolute rubbish at it, I like to believe that I'm not, but comparatively to many other people (I am). I like my friends, I enjoy the company. And Now, emotionally, I'm rather a fragile person. I can either get very hurt from a small careless remark, or be stone cold and not notice someone's emotions and say something rather inappropriate for the situation. Forgive me if I do say something stupid for the situation.

More about me, I'm absolute rubbish at nearly every subject, except for Musicks and Phys Ed. :P All the practical stuff. I like my practical stuff. It helps me focus. And it keeps me more focused than reading a textbook and trying to study.

All in all. I have nothing to say, but that was a really short break in between.

Y'all be well now.
-J