I'm going to set things straight here.
1) DON'T. EVER. SOME. to me with your emotional problems, because while I tell you words of comfort. I'm thinking 'So what are you going to do about it princess?'. I DON'T like all the stress that comes with having friends who have all theses massive emotional problems that invade their life. I stress out even worse, because frankly, I don't deal well with that kind of pressure that comes with having a friend come up to you and lean on your shoulder to cry on. My emotional problems? A few parts silence, perhaps a bit of crying, a dark mood, a few well placed punches in a pillow and then boom. I'm over it. WHY? BECAUSE THERE IS NO NEED, FOR ME TO HANG MY HEAD DOWN, AND CONTEMPLATE ABOUT HOW BAD THE SITUATION IS. I know I'm bing inconsiderate, I know I'm being shallow and conceited, but this is just my opinion. As much as I love my friends, and feel like you should all lead happy, successful lives, if you hang your head down and downcast your eyes for a few days or weeks, as soon as you hit a bump in the road, that a few more days or weeks until that problem gets solved. And even if your feeling like shit, go talk to someone about it. Don't sit there being sad. Go talk to someone. Or at least put on a brave face for your friends. Even if you life is in a complete shithole, and you feel completely downcast, try to put on a brave face. Because that's how I feel about my own problems. For me, sharing my own problems with other people is one of the worst things I could do to you. And no, I don't want your sympathy, I don't want questions asking 'Why?' because that's just the way it is. Id est quod est
I just never liked the prospect of shouldering a problem with a friend, because that's agony my friend has to go through. It's like shouldering off your own problems, so your weight is lighter. But then your friend is shouldering that same weight that was agonising you. Just because I'm sad, it feels like I'm putting the weight off my back, my friends, so I can escape unscathed. I don't like that. So. Just. Don't come to me with your problems with the world. Your First World Problems. Your whatever, emotional problems you'll have. Because all You'll get is a face full of sympathy, and a heart with absolutely none.
2) I AM NOT MY SISTER. AND IF ANYONE, INCLUDING TEACHERS, EVER EXPECTED ANYTHING OF ME THAT WERE OF MY SISTER'S STANDARDS, THEN HAHA. YOU'LL BE SEVERELY DISAPPOINTED.
Ever since today's discussion in Sose about Only child and shit/. Inside I was bubbling with hate. Okay. I absolutely love my sister. I probably have a better relationship with my sister than others do with their siblings, but at the same time, I just wished she wasn't so GOD DAMNED GOOD AT EVERYTHING SHE DID! Ever since I hit the road on Lyneham, I always felt like I was trudging behind in her giant footsteps, always in her shadow she left at Lyneham High. I feel like the teachers all judge me for not being her. I also feel like my parents hate me for not being her. But. the point is. I'M NOT SUNNY.
3) Shoutout to my korean bestie who's birthday is tomorrow! You're turning into a big boy now! :D 16, the sweet 16. You can drive, do stuff ;) ;) and in two years you can drink alcohol :D
ALFRED AND BIG N DAWG, I'm holding you guys to that promise you made. On my 18th birthder, you guys are taking me out for a drink ;)
4) See Y'all Tomoz ;)
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