I tried.

Now.
I know what you're thinking....
Actually, no I don't but what the hell, it's a cool line.
BUT I do know what I'M thinking. I'm thinking my words as I write this blog. And I'm also thinking about how EXCITED I AM!!!

Last term of High School. Sometimes in Primary school, my mum would always tell me 'It's not too far off, soon you'll go to college, you'll go to Uni. You have to STUDY NOW! Before it's too late!'. And back then, I thought that I was immortal. I thought that I wouldn't age. And that it would BE an age before I got to the end of highschool. It all seemed so far off. And then I got to year 6. That year went by a LOT faster than I thought. And suddenly, I was a freshman. The only one from my primary school. I was hell scared, but also a little hopeful and confident. I was sure I could achieve just as well in highschool as I could in Primary school. How wrong I was. I was slapped into a class with 29 other child geniuses and suddenly, every student in the class was game. I basically stopped trying after a while. And then suddenly, it happened again.
My mum would tell me sometimes 'College is not far off now! Think about what YOUR friends are doing. Why aren't YOU like them? Why can't you be like SOMEONE or OTHER. uni is straight after College. Your life is on the verge of breaking. DO SOMETHING! STUDY!'. And then my life did the timewarp and I was is primary school again. Scared to go to a new school. Scared about what I would/wouldn't be able to achieve there. Scared just because life felt like it was on fast forward. Suddenly everything was right up in my face, and it was time for everything. And that's how I feel for the end of this year. But slightly better.
I'm scared for what's to come, or not to come. But I'm also excited. I want to see, what's out there, outside my little shell of a mind. The world is a bigger place than I can imagine, and I've seen it on paper plenty of times. I can try to visualise how small I am on earth, but it's pretty hard. But if I can't see it physically, I'll have to try for it mentally. I want to experience everything before death. I want to see everything there is to see, try everything there is to try, go to places I haven't been to, and I want to know. In my current state. HECK even in EVERYONE'S current state, we're all just newborns in the world of knowledge. It took over 2500 years to accumulate this much knowledge. We can't study it all, but we can try. We can't see it all but we can try. We can't go to every nook and cranny in the world, but we can try.
And so try I shall. Next year, I'll work hard. Even if I suck at every subject I take, I'll give it my best. And so I can at least say
'I tried. I honestly did'.
And we all can say that eventually.

Peace out Girl Scouts ;)